So what I'm trying to say is....

ahh lj

Fri, 20 Jun 2008 13:53:59 GMT

I sometimes come back to you and wonder if you have changed on me, but alas you are just as I left you....

livin life and lovin it in Colorado!

Tue, 04 Jul 2006 06:29:39 GMT

So basically i will update later on what i've done as far as siteseeing to another entry but for now I want to keep a journal on my adventures at work

So I started my first day at the Greenwood rescue and rehibilitation center for wildlife in good old Longmont Colorado ( just outside Boulder). It was a great first day, had some orientation about safety and protocol, got a tour of the premesis. Some of the animals that we help rescue are Raccoons ( my specialty), bunnies, ridiculous number of species of birds, blue heron, a red fox, voles, ducks, prairie dogs, and the list goes on. So after that they let me jump right into helping out with the juvenile and young raccoons. A lot of the work is making sure the kennels are clean and food and water is plentiful, but another amazing aspect of the job is that you get to see how they behave and how playful they really are. At one time in one of the kennels I had about 5 of the little youngins trying to climb up my leg or untie my shoe,or put their head underneath my pant leg. It was one of the coolest days I've ever had. It is so rewarding to be able to know you are making a difference in the life of another living thing. So today I did a lot of cleaning, which for some reason wasn't that bad. I got to put in some cool logs and branches for them to play on, which they quickly responded to. They are so funny about playing in the little kiddie pools. It is crazy to be this close to wild animals. To make sure we keep them as wild as possible you aren't supposed to talk to them because this could be affecting them by imprinting in them that humans are ok to be around. So we try to make as little contact with them as possible. But they are so fricken cute. Note to anyone who wants to leave food out for them, they love love love hard boiled eggs, red grapes, bananas, corn and peanuts. Tomorrow I get to help feed the really tiny ones with a bottle! I'm so excited. I love my work atmosphere, the people are great, I get to be outside all day, and I'm in one of the most beautiful states there is. Could life be any better right now??

haha maybe a little... I have a hike lined up with a boy on wednesday already, haha suckas, love me some colorado men, well hes from michigan too but damnit hes been here for a few years so that should count, well until next time

argggg

Sat, 17 Jun 2006 07:23:32 GMT

I hate men of all kinds, there are no good ones left, lawyers are just as bad as the rest maybe even worse .....can't wait to go to colorado!

blah blah blah

Thu, 08 Jun 2006 14:53:43 GMT

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proves my point

Thu, 08 Jun 2006 05:57:06 GMT

I don't compete for guys...
I knew that because I liked him at one point you would try to get with him ...sick...
thats ok i've moved onto bigger and better things....yeah thats right a law boy! And then maybe some mountain men in Colorado!

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Sat, 27 May 2006 18:32:25 GMT

GOING UP TO THE UP TO VISIT MERE WITH STACY..........SO EXCITED!

question for you all

Fri, 26 May 2006 06:52:09 GMT

Do you ever feel like being with someone or just dating them and having really strong feelings for, this goes back to one person in paticular and I'm sure most of you know who it is a certain someone from Indiana lets say, not my ex bf, like you can never get part of yourself back? Honestly I feel like part of me is still missing in a way, how come I can't feel that about anyone else it seems? Why no explanation? Why do I act like him and try to shut people out? So now this has affected the way I've acted since then and all my feelings for guys in the last year or so. Now How do I really feel about my ex that I broke up with a couple months ago? Do I miss just having someone there or do I actually miss him? Or am I just trying to feel the void that I miss from that someone else? Was I using him to get what I missed about the other guy? And I hate that I'm thinking this now, but i need some answers damnit. I hate that I still have feelings for someone who obviously doesn't care and walks all over me. And I hate that my heart and my head won't feel the same things. Like there are people that are amazing that I wshould be with but I just don't feel ...just feel that excitement...

Anyway I neeed sleep

following up

Wed, 24 May 2006 21:56:48 GMT

Well that last post wasn't directed at anyone in paticular here , so sorry for the confusion, i was just mad about some things and just thought maybe I should write it down to feel better, instead I made some of you worry, which was not my intention, so sorry abou that....love ya all
And that has now passed, i'm over it....i can't help the way people think, i just know what is right I think at the time so I will just follow my own rules...umm yeah

yeah

Wed, 24 May 2006 14:04:12 GMT

I wish people could just sometimes be there for you instead of always judging....because I have tried to do the same for them....

i'm outta here

Sun, 30 Apr 2006 20:50:02 GMT

well not until late june

GOIN TO COLORADO for two months biatches!

so excited

sex and the city

Thu, 27 Apr 2006 23:27:35 GMT

i seriously think i'm addicted, i can't go a day sometimes without watching an episode.... can't put down the remote.....

haha anyway some amazing quotes that I can relate to ...well somewhat..minus a word or two..haha u be the judge on which....

" There were no words left to say.... After we made love I knew it was over. Did I ever really love Mr. Big or was I addicted to the pain , the exsquisite pain of wanting someone so unatainable?"

"I wanted to go to him,but felt like I was tied to the chair, some part of me was holding me back, knowing I had gone too far, reached my limit"

On that note studying tonight for bio of mammals and environmental geochemistry, so that the rest of my weekend is free to study for Organic Chem, love it....

pillow talk

Thu, 27 Apr 2006 04:36:09 GMT

Alan Almond, if ur not from the detroit area u wouldn't know and i feel sorry for you....

Anyway got a phone interview for Greenwood wildlife rescue and rehibilitation center for an internship, oh and did i mention its in Colorado? So excited. Decided that if I get it I must buy a Bob segar cd, a road trip would not be a road trip without his words, or maybe the forest gump soundtrack ?? hmm i'll let u know how it goes

" here i am , on the road again.....

brother bear to the face

Wed, 19 Apr 2006 19:33:56 GMT

Gangsta372: tnx for saving ur candy
Gangsta372: i found it
JulietRmo: hahah gross
Gangsta372: they are still good
JulietRmo: thats from christmas!
Gangsta372: its candy
Gangsta372: its all still fresh
Gangsta372: was covered
JulietRmo: hahahahahah
Gangsta372: cinnamin bears to the face

mind u this is a couple months after christmas......yummy

dafdadfadf

Tue, 18 Apr 2006 00:23:37 GMT

today is so ridiculous, i want to punch something..lost my notebook for a class i don't have a book for, and lost my flippin bus pass two weeks before the semester is up...

i hate life today

my favorite post of all time...still feel the same way!

Sun, 02 Apr 2006 20:04:34 GMT

This post is from february of 2004

I miss...
Kinda sad actually i was looking through my pictures tonight and i came across pictures of waffles and shortcake....for those of u who don't know we had to put two of our dogs to sleep within the last couple months...i really miss em so much...animals aren't just pets...sometimes they are ur best friends... when i was home alone they used to comfort me and hop into bed with me and make me feel not so alone..just a simple look or a kiss from them was enough..just remembering when waffles was a puppy..i used to take her for walks around the block i was about 8 or 9 i think...and she would get tired and cold so i would pick her up and wrap her in my coat the rest of the walk...or how i would be trompin through the snow in the back yard and she would make it a point to jump in my tracks to follow me so she wouldn't get lost in the snow...and also how she would take her chain and walk herself home..or even sometimes shortcake ...just kinda going back to the whole childhood thing...when they passed away..they took a peice of me and my child hood with them..i miss them and love them so much...they could never be replaced...

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i miss the dog posse.

mmm can almost taste it

Sun, 02 Apr 2006 02:47:12 GMT

Well this weekend started off on the right note,

yesterday had lunch with jp, haha hopefully didn't scare him,ate at claras on the train..fun times..haha well at least i had fun! i'm down to make it a weekly lunch thing to mix it up a bit...

then last night we basically blew shit up.....

went to the riv, and stopped by a few after hours parties.. so of course good times.... here are a few quotes from last nights festivities...

" thats hot"
"say thats hot one more time and i'll punch u in the face"
" thats hot" hahah ash making friends at the bar

" I'm willy the can man"

"for the love of jon"

"not to be blunt but...."

"that story blows my ass"

well goin out for another night of craziness! Happy april fools day!

tasty

Wed, 29 Mar 2006 21:52:26 GMT

i did something i haven't done in forever last night....

i went grocery shopping! haha i think i have tasted every possible deli potato salad there is....mmmmm

well now for a ridiculous evening of driving...have to drive to novi after my lab to turn in my scholarship stuff..man i always procrastinate...hopefully my lab gets out before 10 so i can make it back before 1!!!

anyway yay for nice people and this weekend...have a feeling its gonna be a good one!

ahh yes

Tue, 28 Mar 2006 03:49:47 GMT

my heart feels better....

even tho it hurts for him because i know what it feels like to get hurt, i feel a tremendous weight lifted off my shoulders...

it feels good to be just me again...

i'm excited for what the future holds for me in all aspects of my life...

oh and i did 21% better on my second orgo exam

i'm welcoming myself back

Mon, 27 Mar 2006 23:07:06 GMT

haha i haven't written on this in a while...and i'm bored need some input

dilemma of the year....

Do I continue to make someone happy by pretending everything is alright and being unhappy about it myself? Or do I make myself 'happier' in a sense, by letting them go ....either way I go someone loses....but i'm giving myself an ulcer about this...

So if you haven't figured it out i let him talk his way back into my life...yet nothing is going to change because thats just the way it is...even more so its awkward...love him as a person ...but not in love with him...i just know that one great person is still out there for me...and for him...were just not it for each other

It's time to be happy for me which may sound selfish but yet sometimes you just cant' be a people pleaser...

hello lova!

Tue, 03 May 2005 05:37:01 GMT

ahh what a week...today i had two finals...the first one was going along fine until a girl started having a seizure...was it mean for me to keep working on my final? the ta and prof were helping her the rest of us had no idea what to do so we stared for a minute and went back to work...shes ok...totally freaked me out...then had my second final..haha i had two hours to write a paper...only came up with 3 1/2 pages...then had a good night with heidi...she came up to visit me and it was like old times...i cried like ten times at dinner from laughing so hard...entertained our waiter and made a gay couple laugh and call each other bitches..some times a good dose of an old friend puts everything in to perspective..haha well at least partially. I have still yet to come to understand this whole dating process. why is it some people have it so easy and others not? is there a secret lil dance u have to do or something...i want in the club please! haha and i suppose watching sex and the city did very little to help my boy woahs...love it tho...its as if i can almost believe i'm not the only one out there...and i know i'm not it just sucks that i can't find a guy that i'm totally compatable with...or yet feels they are with me...i like the chase ...but not mind games...keep me intrigued but show some interest to let me no yay or nay....i'm still waiting for that best friend to come along...for a lil while maybe i'll give the look up..well at least hardcore trying to find that right guy... haha cuz i know everytime i say that i find another fish that swims by my direction in this muddy friggin pond.. i ususally find the ones right out of serious relationships or that tell me their entire life history including their manic depressive bipolar pasts....hmm check please.... i love on these nights however coming home to my glowing yellow room that feels so warm listening to my favorite classic tunes...like stand by me, lady in red, unchained melody, lullabye...kinda wierd since they all are about that thing which i can't seem to find...the songs are comforting tho..it kind of makes me fell like i'm getting closer....so now that i've waited this long i better get the cream of the crop...watch out!

here we go ...here we go...here we go now...

Mon, 11 Apr 2005 02:56:40 GMT

wow life has been so crazy lately...as most of you know i have been out of town for like a year...well at least the 4 weekends before this one with the womens bball team...well they did good..had a great season but damn those baylor girls...they need a beat down..i knew i should have done a tanya harding to em! fuckers haha well i guess thers always next year..
had a great weekend...friday went to the women doctor..haha not so bad..my mom tried to scare the shit out of me b4 i went..then shopped in birmingham like i had money..haha but didn't...got myself a bday dress..ahh yes...then hung out with my bestest..even tho i made her cry..haha shes pregnant...and i told her i lost 10 pounds..haha i walk out of the bathroom..and she was crying and said she was fat..aww love her..damn i'm a bad friend...should remember...pregnant=emotional...then hung out with ms heidi...saturday came back and then headed up to central...ate dinner with the longo girls..then proceeded to alma to rock out at some partys..lets just say a little alcohol a pole and some crazy girls were involved..then today i hung out with jules , then mere and brijan...haha gotta love the brownie sniper! haha love it...
well i'm not too interested in writing a big update...so allu who are 21...my bday is thursday..bring ur green hat! haha anyway ...goin out like ballers..be there..or anybar in el cuz i'm sure we;ll hit up a few

ahhhh yes!

Sat, 26 Feb 2005 07:01:27 GMT

well a bad week has turned out to be an amazing night due to my bestest liz!
nothing like giving me literally $6,000 worth of clothes.....aww shes so pregnant and cute...god i love her...haha i think claire loves her a lot too now...she ended up with 6 pairs of jeans from liz...crazy...damn i wish i was her size...thats ok i lucked out too...i never have to buy any clothes again...haha
well maybe...well nothin like a pick me up fashion show of hand me downs to feel good again...ahhh going to bed with a smile now...thanks to her

wanting more

Wed, 23 Feb 2005 05:02:42 GMT

So had an amazing weekend with tom...he came up on friday...got to talk for a couple hours then hung out at jules and played cranium til it was bedtime...stayed up til 530 talkin...woke up on saturday went to jeffs bball game! yay the chips won! came back to EL...went to dinner at claras...saw sideways..then dessert at champs...followed by a bottle of wine and another night of talking til 5...miss him already! but he needs to keep up with his promises...so we'll see... i guess time will tell...well time for a shower and some more chem..goodnight

you make me smile

Tue, 15 Feb 2005 19:59:12 GMT

so the unexpected has happened.....
you make me smile....
i'm willing to take the chance ..
even tho i might get hurt again..
i believe in it...thanks for finally believing in it too

one step at a time...

another valentines day passes

Tue, 15 Feb 2005 01:43:52 GMT

well happy valentines to those who dont have a valentine...even tho this year i somehow boycotted..unknowingly..and was totally passed up by the feeling i usually get at valentines...usually i'm in the mood to give a lil valentine card out to people..orget excited by valentine cards sent to me...this year none of that happened...i didn't feel like passing out cards..and i even was passed up by the ole valentines from the family....i dunno...i'm a lil upset...even my mom forgot to send me a card...she never forgets...she knows how much even a little card makes me feel better...its crazy to think that something so small can mean so much...i sitll feel like a little kid..i want a card at valentines, i want an easter basket, i want a stocking..haha althought it may sound a little selfish it makes holidays a little easier if your mom makes up for the loss of others...its stupid holidays like this that make me realize i've never had anyone special..just another day to shove into the single bin...when will it be my turn..i think i've been pretty patient...why is it so much easier for other people?? And damnit why isn't sleepless in seattle on?

Well on the upside of today i did go out to a very extravagant dinner to micky d's with claire...that made me feel a little better..nothing like cloggin up the arteries to feel better about myself..haha love it,
Also i bought myself some jewelry today..ahh jewelry makes me feel pretty! gotta love turquoise !
Now time to get focused and not fuck up the rest of my exams,quizzes, and papers this week!